Fri. Feb. 19th

Well I didn't sleep well last night . I kept waking up and I had a headache almost all day . I have has small headaches that feel kinda like the pain you get before you get a headache but thats as far as they have got . Not the case . I was happy though when waking up to find my headache no be nil . I finally gave up on sleep and got out of bed at like 7 am . Took my shower and was ready for a big day of treatment . I think the thought of starting chemo was weighing heavy on me . Yet today was the day , time to put the best foot forward and remember my meditations . I made breakfast went for a walk then was ready for Sister to come and get me . While I was waiting dad called me and told me he had my allowence for the week . Yippy ! I go down stairs and theres Karyn . The two of them were hashing out details of Heartball or some type of foundraiser . I tuned them out and went to pet Rusty ( my parents dog that they call our brother .... oy ) .
I get a phone call , it's Seattle Cancer Care the nurse is tellig me there was confusion and they had to move my appointment to Monday . That way they would be able to do the test they need and I would be able to talk more with the Dr. . I have to admit I was kinda excited about this news . I really wasn't ready to start chemo I am having a hard time with it for some reason . I understand why I am doing the radiation but even after being explained to me a few times from mutiple people I still don't get why I need to do the chemo . I just think I am being stubern on the subject . =)
Radiation treatment went pretty quick as soon as I got in . The plastic mask that they click me into is starting to feel less evasive to me . When they give me the treatment , I tell myself that what is happening is making me better . It can be a real distrubing process if you are not in the right mind frame . ( I think that is my problem with chemo I just can't find my mind frame for it , maybe I should go shopping for frames .... ) My first treatment I got a weird taste in my mouth this time it kinda smelled like bromide ( like hottub chemicals ) it just smelled no taste . About 10 minutes afterwards I had a headache . I find it somewhat ironic that the whole reason I came in was due to headaches and now the treatment they have me on a side effect is headaches , at least I still have a bunch of aleve from before still . ( got to find the silver linings )
I ask Karyn if she wanted to go up to Seattle with me to see the McKay's , she said she would love to . So we wwent up there at about 2ish . I tild her that we were going to be way early so we took a detoure at the Westfeild mall area . We did what Whitacre women are really good at shopping ! We went into the Dress Barn to see if we could find her a dress for some thing she was going to on Satuerday . I love the hunt ! I found her this super cute gold and black dress . It had black lace and a gold satin under it , Super cute on sister ! Plus it was 60% off so it was a steal ! I found a warm up jacket for 8 bucks ! ( I know exceedes my $5 limit but some things are worth it ) While we are shopping S.C.C. calls again and tells me that they had a opening on Tuesday if I want to move up my port surgery . I take it , I think that people are more focased on their 2nd day at work . Plus I would like to try and keep all the stuff that makes me feel like poo to the early week that way on my weekends I will be a bit stronger going into them and feeling better on the Monday before the treatments start again . It's all bout maintaining optimal health .
Sister and I finsh up shopping and head to Pip's house . We took the express lane think it would work in our benifit . It would have if we would of been able to take the exit we needed . We ended up having to drive a bit more but it was a nice drive around the Fremont / Ballard area . We sat around for a few minutes and played catch up then everyone agreed that they were hungry . While grabing coats Pip asked my sister do you want me to drive or for you to drive . Karyn says you can you know where we are going , ask Liz who she want to drive . Pip says she hates my driving . Sister responds she hates everyone driving . I chip in Thats because you all try and KILL me ! Plus Pip I only hate your highway / freeway driving in town you are great ! With that we all pile in to Pip and Louise's car . We went to Korean B.B.Q. I had never been . It was awesome ! The 4 of us shared a combo meat platter and a extra side dish . It all was good ! The Teryaki sauce was a little spicey which I liked . My favorite though was mixing the bean sauce and the teryaki it was supper good . I will definitly go for Korean again .
The drive home was nice not to much traffic . Karyn told me to try and count how many planes were lined up for landing , I have never done this before . At one point there was 8 that I could count . That's a lot of people on the go . Wonder where they all go ? Mmmmm ....