Kalifornia

I had the pleasure of receiving a email when I was on vacation from a girl who lives in the mid west . She wanted to know how I was doing as I hadn't posted a new story/update in a while . At first it made my feel good that some stranger in the midwest was worried about me , then I realized I had started something that I had to follow through with and be better about keeping it up to date . I then felt kinda felt like I let myself down and others . I then had a conversation with myself that ended with me saying to myself " I'm not mad at you just disappointed " . I always disliked hearing that . So I from here on out will try and post something at least every week till I am done with treatment and who knows maybe after treatment too . I would also like to say " Thank you " to you all for your kind thoughts , prayers , good ju-ju , and wishes .

Well lets see I am on my 4th round of chemo right now . They took me off the vancristen due to the fact i was loseing mobility in my feet ! I could no longer walk on my heels . It is a strange feeling not being able to do something that you have been able to do almost all your life . I keep thinking if I think about it hard enough I can Jedi mind my feet to do it . Sadly no matter how hard I try I still can't do it . I think my Jedi powers are in the 70% of the brain I don't use . Yes I know we only use 10% but my " brain child " aka tumor took up 20% so Ifigure I have about 70% . haha well maybe less if you add in the pot smoking and I hear when you sneaze you kill brain cells - weird . So who knows ? Plus the body is always creating new cells and replacing the old with the new . I heard that your whole body is new every 7 years . I thought that was kinnda cool .

I have been having to get more blood draws as this morbid roller coaster goes along . I keep having low blood counts . I am so glad I got a port put in ! I guess the upside if I didn't get the port would be for Halloween I could of gone as a junky , ooooooh I can go out with like a gas station pump and be vampire gas ! hahehehaha . 1500 $ a pint !

Fall is one of my favorite times of the year . I love the changing of colors , crisp air , the crunch of the leafs under my feet , and the smell of the oncoming winter at the tip of my nose . Carving pumpkins the making roasted pumkin seeds yummers ! I love getting dressed up and seeing if people can guess who I am . What are you going to be this year ? I think I am going to try and be Debra from the show Dexter . I think she would be a hoot to be for a day or two .


So now hat I am being more involved with my life I think it might be time to maybe try working al little . I miss having a job . I can't really do much though so here is my plan . Do you want to send out Holiday cards but never have the time ? For a small fee I will do it for you ! I will fold , stuff, address and place your cards in the mail for you . I know it's an odd job to come up with but I figure that during the holidays everyone is always looking for the one thing that there is never enough of ... time . If you are interested call me or sister - it was kinda her idea and I thought it sounded good .