I had the pleasure of receiving a email when I was on vacation from a girl who lives in the mid west . She wanted to know how I was doing as I hadn't posted a new story/update in a while . At first it made my feel good that some stranger in the midwest was worried about me , then I realized I had started something that I had to follow through with and be better about keeping it up to date . I then felt kinda felt like I let myself down and others . I then had a conversation with myself that ended with me saying to myself " I'm not mad at you just disappointed " . I always disliked hearing that . So I from here on out will try and post something at least every week till I am done with treatment and who knows maybe after treatment too . I would also like to say " Thank you " to you all for your kind thoughts , prayers , good ju-ju , and wishes .
Well lets see I am on my 4th round of chemo right now . They took me off the vancristen due to the fact i was loseing mobility in my feet ! I could no longer walk on my heels . It is a strange feeling not being able to do something that you have been able to do almost all your life . I keep thinking if I think about it hard enough I can Jedi mind my feet to do it . Sadly no matter how hard I try I still can't do it . I think my Jedi powers are in the 70% of the brain I don't use . Yes I know we only use 10% but my " brain child " aka tumor took up 20% so Ifigure I have about 70% . haha well maybe less if you add in the pot smoking and I hear when you sneaze you kill brain cells - weird . So who knows ? Plus the body is always creating new cells and replacing the old with the new . I heard that your whole body is new every 7 years . I thought that was kinnda cool .
I have been having to get more blood draws as this morbid roller coaster goes along . I keep having low blood counts . I am so glad I got a port put in ! I guess the upside if I didn't get the port would be for Halloween I could of gone as a junky , ooooooh I can go out with like a gas station pump and be vampire gas ! hahehehaha . 1500 $ a pint !
Fall is one of my favorite times of the year . I love the changing of colors , crisp air , the crunch of the leafs under my feet , and the smell of the oncoming winter at the tip of my nose . Carving pumpkins the making roasted pumkin seeds yummers ! I love getting dressed up and seeing if people can guess who I am . What are you going to be this year ? I think I am going to try and be Debra from the show Dexter . I think she would be a hoot to be for a day or two .
So now hat I am being more involved with my life I think it might be time to maybe try working al little . I miss having a job . I can't really do much though so here is my plan . Do you want to send out Holiday cards but never have the time ? For a small fee I will do it for you ! I will fold , stuff, address and place your cards in the mail for you . I know it's an odd job to come up with but I figure that during the holidays everyone is always looking for the one thing that there is never enough of ... time . If you are interested call me or sister - it was kinda her idea and I thought it sounded good .
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I love your writing Liz. I am excited to read about your adventures (and mine - hehehe)
ReplyDeleteHey Liz,
ReplyDeleteMy name is Liz and I also have brain cancer. AND--get this--I have made another friend named Liz with brain cancer. We both live in northern California and have met up three times to hang out. It is interesting making friends with other brain cancer patients/survivors.
Now I can add you to my ever growing Liz Army. ;)
Stay well and keep up the hard fight!
Your friend,
Liz