Well I will be moving in with sister this weekend . She keeps coming over to my house and telling me I don't have that much stuff to do . My mom comes over and tells me I have done next to nothing . I lean more tward mom's thought on the matter . If I was left to myself to pack and clean I would of started 2 months a go . I will pack a box or two then have to take a nap or at least a 0 to 15 min break . Yet , I will say I thought I had done alot of work already . I guess I hide my stuff well , because when it comes out of hiding I have a ton of crap !! I think half the stuff I am moving is stuff I am going to put in mine and sisters garage sale . I mean granted I am a girl there for I have slight shoe fetish but I never realized they would breed under my bed . My Pumas mated with my Poneys now I have Kangaroos . It crazy !!! The worst part is I look at each shoe like it's Salomons child . Give it away would be the right thing but I love the shoe !!! urg ! Why do they make them so darn cute !!! Maybe I will have a walk-a-thon where instead of donations you wear all the pairs of shoes you are going to donate and you do a lap around the feild with all of them tied to you like the back of a " just married " car . Then there could be sprint races in high heels . A slipper suffle for the old folks and mabye a baby bootie bounce off where the babies just bounce in their bouncy chairs . There could be something for everyone . * shivered * ( I just realized how dorky I am =) )
Well any ways so I am moving and for the 1st time ever I decieded to get a truck . I know , I know , I could fit all my stuff in like 9 cars , plus a few random trips . i am over trying to do that . it takes way more time and no matter how good it sounds in your head , it's really not the best idea . I was just cheap or was it that I opted to buy a keg of beer instead in the past to quench everyones thirst who helped me move ? I have actually less stuff now then I did 2 years ago though . I keep purging , all this "stuff " I don't even know why I hold on to some of it . A lot of it is just relentless baggage that I carry from place to place , yet I have no idea why . So as I try to answer that big questions with certian items my pile of " stuff " becomes less and I can feel the freedome of being set free from it . Seriously try it . I started maybe 6 months ago . I turned all my hangers backwards any thing that wasn't turned around I took a hard look at , tried it on , and if I still liked it kept it if not donated . I donated 9 , 10gal bags of clothes to goodwill . I didn't even have the urge to replace the all . Weird miracle ( or it could be the power of the tumor )
If it wasn't for mom yesterday sitting very nicley waiting for me to come out of my chemo fog to tell her how and where I needed help . I know I needed help but I want to know what box stuff goes in so I can find it I like Christmas just fine but not on moving day . So mom 1st was my " bag boy " she baged my panrty for me as I made areas in the front garage sale , storge , and moves . we finished about the same time and I told her I needed a break she agreed . I made some mac n cheese with broccoli in it for her and I , sister stopped by with newspaper and joined in on the meal . After eating we went on a family trip to Home Depot to get rubber storage containers . hehehe I never knew something like that would be such an experiance . I mean full on animated conversations over which one is better and prices and even color . I loved it =) . Hehe . Back at home mom stayed and helped me pack almost the whole kitchen . She is such a trooped ! I still have my room and the bathroom to do but everythings seems to be more do-able now . Love da momma !
Oh and the tomato , pepper and yellow squash starts are looking good !! I am excited for home grow veggies ! My favorite !
Thursday, May 27, 2010
Wednesday, May 19, 2010
Should be a nice weekend
Well this week was about as normal as I get these days . I felt pretty good for the most part . The nausea is starting to be not as bad . The pills help me eat but I still have a lack of hunger and nothing ever really sounds good . The nurses keep telling me never eat anything you love while getting treatment , it can make you hate it , find it gross , or since the taste buds are all messed up think that it is made wrong or something is off in it . I have made the mistake now a few times . I thought I would have cheesecake bad choice tasted weird ( 1st time I have ate it since the food show when I ate all like 3 bad samples in a row I don't think I will ever eat it again ) A few different cereals Corn pops ( Yuck ! ) frosted flakes ( gross ! ) oatmeal ( strange texture ) chicken noodle soup ( too salty ) I have a few more but as I list them I am sorta getting depressed thinking at what few things I actually will have left to eat . I will be worse than those little kids that only eat chicken nuggets , ketchup and apples .
So with that said guess what I am doing on Sunday ? I am going to a benefit for the Broadway Center . They call it ' Food Stars " it's catered by 6 different restraunts from around town . I am sure that with my small appetite I will have some happy people sitting around me . I found a super cute dress at Ross for less than 20 bucks , shoes at Target - 20 , necklace w/ earring set Sears 18 bucks , wig 40 and make 6 dollars . not to bad I can also wear the dress for a few other things I have coming up . The wig is super cute too !! So happy ! This should be good ! Fingers crossed .
So with that said guess what I am doing on Sunday ? I am going to a benefit for the Broadway Center . They call it ' Food Stars " it's catered by 6 different restraunts from around town . I am sure that with my small appetite I will have some happy people sitting around me . I found a super cute dress at Ross for less than 20 bucks , shoes at Target - 20 , necklace w/ earring set Sears 18 bucks , wig 40 and make 6 dollars . not to bad I can also wear the dress for a few other things I have coming up . The wig is super cute too !! So happy ! This should be good ! Fingers crossed .
Tuesday, May 11, 2010
Embellish
Well this week has proven that chemo is slowly taking over my body . It is a weird feeling . It's odd I feel like I am getting old in fast / slow motion . I have no idea how to explain this to someone who isn't sick like me . It's a crappy feeling not being able to do what you know you should be able to do . I know I can walk over 2 miles and be fine , no , no I can't right now when I have tried I end up taking a 3 hour nap . I have to split my chores up in to chunks . I will read a chapter then wash a few dishes , read a chapter then sweep the floor , ect . So needless to say I can't wait to be done . I know it takes time I know I need all the naps I know that treatment is grueling but I just wish that it didn't take so long .
ON the other foot .... I get to go down to Embellish next week . Trish the great is going to give me a head scrub . Man I never knew how awesome showers and head messages were until I became bald . I use to be really good about taking 5 min showers now they are like 10 min . I just love the way they feel . I encourage anyone who needs a hair cut , color , perm , or just wants to try a new do to give Embellish Salon a try .
ON the other foot .... I get to go down to Embellish next week . Trish the great is going to give me a head scrub . Man I never knew how awesome showers and head messages were until I became bald . I use to be really good about taking 5 min showers now they are like 10 min . I just love the way they feel . I encourage anyone who needs a hair cut , color , perm , or just wants to try a new do to give Embellish Salon a try .
Friday, May 7, 2010
Getting out but not around a lot of people
So part of my treatment is that my immune system will be going down the shiter here in a few weeks . I will not be able to be around a lot of people again . I like to go for walks around town but I crave to hike out in the trees with truely fresh air . My mom and I stopped at REI today on the way home . I found a book of easy day hikes for Rainier and the Penninsula . I am hopeing that I can find all sorts of different friends to do these hikes with . Some are kid oriented , some allow dogs , but they all are outside in our gorgouse pacific northwest . So when ever you want to go for a nice day trip give me a call or e-mail me . I am ready ! I will warn you that I am not a fast walker anymore I still have not been able to build speed . It truelly will be a stroll through the forest or feilds .
cell 253-651-9933
e-mail whitacre.elizabeth@yahoo.com
cell 253-651-9933
e-mail whitacre.elizabeth@yahoo.com
Ruff week
Chemo started last week and I can say that it is slowly kicking my butt . I went today with mom and I was surprised at how fast and smooth it all went . I think it was the fastest I have been in and out of SCCA . i was suppose to get a hearing test but they want my ear canal to not be inflamed when I go . It's inflamed from when I had radiation . We all thought it would have gone away by now but sadly I am partialy def now in my right ear till the swelling goes down . It's a strange feeling to have bad hearing .
On our way up to SCCA we stopped in to Starbucks for a quick snack an so I could have a coffee . As I was looking at he breakfast sandwichs I hear " Liz ? Liz Whitacre ? " I turn around and it was Gloria Binkly !!! I haven't seen her in about 2 years ! My emotions are all crazy , I was so excited to see her I almost cried . I am turning into a emtional basketcase . I was so amazed to see her . It is so funny how a small 5 minute break from what " is " going on can change how you feel for a good chunk of the day .
On our way up to SCCA we stopped in to Starbucks for a quick snack an so I could have a coffee . As I was looking at he breakfast sandwichs I hear " Liz ? Liz Whitacre ? " I turn around and it was Gloria Binkly !!! I haven't seen her in about 2 years ! My emotions are all crazy , I was so excited to see her I almost cried . I am turning into a emtional basketcase . I was so amazed to see her . It is so funny how a small 5 minute break from what " is " going on can change how you feel for a good chunk of the day .
Sunday, May 2, 2010
May day fun over
May day was great this year at sisters house ! The pole was wrapped by the young and the old . Every one remembered which direction they needed to go . The welcoming to spring is now over so spring and warmer weather can begin !!!
It was a lot of fun to see every ones kids running around playing . Kat's daughter wowed us with her animal noises and kept me laughing as she tried to squirm away . They are so cute at that age !!! Laurels oldest Maddie was showing off her spanish speaking skills to us . We would ask her how to say a color or item of clothing and she would name it . Then she counted to 40 in spanish ! The end to her show was the preforming of sumersaults and kartwheels .
The fire pit was lite a little after 6 to help keep people warm . It was nice to sit around the fire . I was bundled up and toasty . When we started to run low on wood I taught one of sisters friends how to chop wood with the help of Jeff D. it was pretty funny . Dino was pretty proud of himself as well as he should be . He did a great job .
After everyone left sister and I sat around and talked about our favorite moments and had a good laugh .
I woke up on sisters couch this morning feeling a little worn . I can tell when I have socially strained my self and I was a little stained . I found my purse and took my antipuking pills . I honestly can not tell you if they work or not because I hate feeling way enough that I take them on time . My hunger level these last few days has been down again . I am hoping that it will balance out here in a little bit . I have had the energy of a three toed slothe today . I will learn balance . I will learn balance . This will be my mantra for the next leg of my journey .
It was a lot of fun to see every ones kids running around playing . Kat's daughter wowed us with her animal noises and kept me laughing as she tried to squirm away . They are so cute at that age !!! Laurels oldest Maddie was showing off her spanish speaking skills to us . We would ask her how to say a color or item of clothing and she would name it . Then she counted to 40 in spanish ! The end to her show was the preforming of sumersaults and kartwheels .
The fire pit was lite a little after 6 to help keep people warm . It was nice to sit around the fire . I was bundled up and toasty . When we started to run low on wood I taught one of sisters friends how to chop wood with the help of Jeff D. it was pretty funny . Dino was pretty proud of himself as well as he should be . He did a great job .
After everyone left sister and I sat around and talked about our favorite moments and had a good laugh .
I woke up on sisters couch this morning feeling a little worn . I can tell when I have socially strained my self and I was a little stained . I found my purse and took my antipuking pills . I honestly can not tell you if they work or not because I hate feeling way enough that I take them on time . My hunger level these last few days has been down again . I am hoping that it will balance out here in a little bit . I have had the energy of a three toed slothe today . I will learn balance . I will learn balance . This will be my mantra for the next leg of my journey .
Saturday, May 1, 2010
starting again
Sister normally takes me to my Seattle Cancer Care appointments but do to things she had planned she did not . So here is the Tale of Dad taking me to S.C.C. .
Dad picked me up at 8:15ish so that we could grab a quick breakfast and head out on to the road . we were pretty lucky traffic wasn't bad at all . We made it uo to Seattle at about 9:15 . Still had about a half hour before my 1st appointment . I flipped through a zine and dad took nap #1 . They cal my name so I follow the nurse to the blood draw room . Blood is done and over with fast . The nurse tells me I have a few minutes before my mri and that I can just rest - nap #1 for me .
I am woken up and taken to a holding type room where the tech tells me that the music listed ob the wall is what I can listen to while in the mri . After ho humming over the list I settle for the Gypsy Kings . THen the tech tells me it was going to be a few more minutes then lays a warm blanket on my lap -nap#2 .
The tech wakes me up and tells me the mri takes about 45 min so if you need to go , go now . I slip back out into the lobby to grab something and dad was cathing up to me know - nap #2 for dad .
The MRI machine at SCC seemed so much loader to me then TG or Alenmor . It also made different noises . AS I lay on the board I practice meditating as a way to not freak out . Then I fell asleep - nap #3 . after about 40 min of being in there they pul me out and inject some contrst into my system and did about 10 more min of xrays .
After that fun . I took dad to my meeting with the dr.'s I got my vitals , weighed , and temp taken . THen had a small learning session on what all the drugs and prescibtions were . My dad and I were thing we would be done by 3ish ..... The dr.s nurse told hime what was on thr board for the day . !st a 5 hour hyrdation bag ( cut to dads face as his eyes first bug out then roll then go to the clock so he could figure how much longer lol ) 2nd vanchristine 3rd cisplatin and then 4th CeeNU ( it's like 24 pills that you have to take with in ten minutes , they taste pretty nasty too . Then they flush the port line and your done . The nurse than proceeds to give me 5 priscriptions to have filled while I get treated .
I take dad up one more floor we sit down and wait not even 5 minutes before they call my name to go to the infusion room . Room 7 I like that room because you have less people around you and noise . I put my stuff in the room and give dad a tour . I show him wher the kitchens are and his eyes light up slighly . I told hoim all this was on me and to help himself . I grabed a water bottle , string cheese and a jello pack . Dad got a nutriagrain bar some cheese water and a soda . When we came back there was Ed all ready with my hydration bag . He told me that he increased the drip and it should only be about 3hrs , Awesome !!! He is so good to me ! I got all comfy on the bed and settle into the idea of a nap . Ed grabbed be 2 warmed blankets . Nap # 3 .
I wake up and dad is cruisin through his book and I feel really nice and rest . Ed comes in and gives me a shot of steriods to help with one of the meds he wil be giving me . I then wonder what all the steriodes they have given to me might do to me .. I hope I don't turn into a cabbage patch doll or garbage pail kid . Shortly after Ed leaves . nap #4 .
I wake up from nap #4 and I see dad napping so I will gues that this nap is #4 for hime also maybe #3 . When I wake I feel the results of the steriods I have a bit more energy . I turn on my little t.v. and watch Fariss Buellers day off . love that movie . ( When cameron was in eygpt land .... let my cameron go .....) ( Do you want a gummy bear ? They are warm they hac=ve been in my pocket all day soooo.... ) shortly after the end of the movie . Ed comes in and informs my that I am done !!! So exciting !!
Now all I have to do is figure out my pill scedule and I will be golden !! I have to remain some what excited and peppy over this crap or the actual reality of it will eat my happiness , and I don't like it when that happens . So what do you do . Put on a happy face and WOOOOOHOOOOO!
Dad picked me up at 8:15ish so that we could grab a quick breakfast and head out on to the road . we were pretty lucky traffic wasn't bad at all . We made it uo to Seattle at about 9:15 . Still had about a half hour before my 1st appointment . I flipped through a zine and dad took nap #1 . They cal my name so I follow the nurse to the blood draw room . Blood is done and over with fast . The nurse tells me I have a few minutes before my mri and that I can just rest - nap #1 for me .
I am woken up and taken to a holding type room where the tech tells me that the music listed ob the wall is what I can listen to while in the mri . After ho humming over the list I settle for the Gypsy Kings . THen the tech tells me it was going to be a few more minutes then lays a warm blanket on my lap -nap#2 .
The tech wakes me up and tells me the mri takes about 45 min so if you need to go , go now . I slip back out into the lobby to grab something and dad was cathing up to me know - nap #2 for dad .
The MRI machine at SCC seemed so much loader to me then TG or Alenmor . It also made different noises . AS I lay on the board I practice meditating as a way to not freak out . Then I fell asleep - nap #3 . after about 40 min of being in there they pul me out and inject some contrst into my system and did about 10 more min of xrays .
After that fun . I took dad to my meeting with the dr.'s I got my vitals , weighed , and temp taken . THen had a small learning session on what all the drugs and prescibtions were . My dad and I were thing we would be done by 3ish ..... The dr.s nurse told hime what was on thr board for the day . !st a 5 hour hyrdation bag ( cut to dads face as his eyes first bug out then roll then go to the clock so he could figure how much longer lol ) 2nd vanchristine 3rd cisplatin and then 4th CeeNU ( it's like 24 pills that you have to take with in ten minutes , they taste pretty nasty too . Then they flush the port line and your done . The nurse than proceeds to give me 5 priscriptions to have filled while I get treated .
I take dad up one more floor we sit down and wait not even 5 minutes before they call my name to go to the infusion room . Room 7 I like that room because you have less people around you and noise . I put my stuff in the room and give dad a tour . I show him wher the kitchens are and his eyes light up slighly . I told hoim all this was on me and to help himself . I grabed a water bottle , string cheese and a jello pack . Dad got a nutriagrain bar some cheese water and a soda . When we came back there was Ed all ready with my hydration bag . He told me that he increased the drip and it should only be about 3hrs , Awesome !!! He is so good to me ! I got all comfy on the bed and settle into the idea of a nap . Ed grabbed be 2 warmed blankets . Nap # 3 .
I wake up and dad is cruisin through his book and I feel really nice and rest . Ed comes in and gives me a shot of steriods to help with one of the meds he wil be giving me . I then wonder what all the steriodes they have given to me might do to me .. I hope I don't turn into a cabbage patch doll or garbage pail kid . Shortly after Ed leaves . nap #4 .
I wake up from nap #4 and I see dad napping so I will gues that this nap is #4 for hime also maybe #3 . When I wake I feel the results of the steriods I have a bit more energy . I turn on my little t.v. and watch Fariss Buellers day off . love that movie . ( When cameron was in eygpt land .... let my cameron go .....) ( Do you want a gummy bear ? They are warm they hac=ve been in my pocket all day soooo.... ) shortly after the end of the movie . Ed comes in and informs my that I am done !!! So exciting !!
Now all I have to do is figure out my pill scedule and I will be golden !! I have to remain some what excited and peppy over this crap or the actual reality of it will eat my happiness , and I don't like it when that happens . So what do you do . Put on a happy face and WOOOOOHOOOOO!
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