Life goes on

    I know I broke my promise to myself , it's not the 1st or the last I'm sure .

Its been 2+ years since I was a cancer ridden person . I thought I would of been back in the game . I guess I thought higher of myself then I should of . I have a good outlook but I still am super tired ! Grrrrrrr !!! I there for in the course of a week can drink my weight in coffee ( never thought I could say that ) . The jolt that the coffee gives me makes me function like a normal person at precoffee in the morning .

Starting to think about what I would like to do after all this . Lot of ideas flooding in , but when I think about it realistic-eee I think I would be bored , tired , to much work , to many people , to much money , have to stand for to long , or that's a LOT of school ! Top of the list of things I wouldn't mind being is Forest Ranger , candle maker , and taster . I plan on asking for lots of info on all of them . I have wrote the food network about having me on as a judge for iron chef but sadly no reply . =) I think I might have to start writing them twice a month .... candle maker i just think would be peaceful - you would buy a candle from me right ? The last and hardest the Park/ forest  Ranger . It would be 4 years of school , two years of outdoor training , first aid , cpr - already have , and I forgot the last one ........

I have been dating a fantastic guy named John ( I call him Pumpkin ;) . Going through all this I never thought I would get a date . I have bald patchy spots from the radiation and the chemo , but the plus I can have any type of hair I want . I have a few wigs annnnddd I LOVE them . Hehehe . He is the best , when I get tired he pushes me or drags me back home . He rubs my feet , He likes my bald spots ! He takes a bus to come see me . He pays to go see movies he knows he is going to hate just because I think they will be awesome !

I am lucky to still have friends , Here is a funny thing You never expect to lose friends when you get sick but for me that was not the case . At first I was kinda hurt but in the end I love the ones that stuck around to help or just share a joke or two .

I know all this is a little debbie downer of a add but I want to be honest with my feeling and my out look on this experiance in my life . I actually as of the last year have been the happiest I think I have been in a long time . I am surrounded by people who care an love me . It is a good feeling .


          I got a lot of love to give ~

                         Hugs Liz